these recreations, i usually do in journal(s) in the reality, but sometimes i want to type my words.... you know. so here,




>first;rough

>(on_purpose)mental fragment

_____i wrote this at midnight and have scarce recollection of any of it... incomprehensible. continue cautiously


logs

two-thousand twenty six


9:42 p.m., i'm in my room listening to my mp3s
hmmm new years is the worst time to improve yourself
i think i almost died on the road tonight.. i kept begging for the cars to come closer in my head, it was odd
i wouldn't mind it, it's that clear, but my chest still burned like i needed to act
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again, i am nothing,
since i cut my hair off i've felt relieved from myself. i don't feel the need to think about it( orientation) like i used to, but its like people don't want to look at me. but its not revulsion, like my mother predicted. i feel idle and i want to be with my people. whine, whine, whine... hey guys. i hope whoevers reading this is doing ok. hi... i should make this site more interesting, shouldn't i... my wound smells like shit



i feel love. i feel love and i don't know what to do with it...aahh... nihil sumus omnino nihil mecum esto
feeling something so strong it makes you freeze in fear. don't you know? you say things and i think about them. you should know...
realizing i really did make people uncomfortable with my belief bullshit. but it's not like i actually believed. i was just turning to something sturdy during a dark time, a weakness.
i've been really getting into watching youtubers play minecraft horror mods

silence

currently reading: house of the dead~dostoevsky and? the aeneid? at least thinking about it








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